Tuesday, 30 October 2012

Breast Pads

I've decided to include some thoughts on different things I've found useful while being a mum. I have not been sent these products. They are items I have bought or been given as gifts. These are my own views and I just thought I would add them. As they are quite often things my friends and I discuss.

Not sure how everyone else copes with different brands but I have used just about every brand this time.

First time round I just used mothercare own brand with H but this time I just found most of them filled up so quick that before I knew it both my bra and top were soaked, especially at night.

Most where very small so at night time just disappeared and some just too unreliable when it came to absorption.

Over the past 8 months I have finally settled on two brands that I now love and trust when it come to keeping me dry. Tommee Tippee and Lansinoh are those.

Both are very similar. They are both quite large but thin with great absorption. The TT ones come wrapped as pairs where the Lansinoh ones are wrapped individually.

I also have some washable ones I keep for emergency, when you don't realise you've reached the bottom if the box already. But I found I was soaking these through quite quickly as well.

Monday, 29 October 2012

Cycling fun

So today's the first day of half term. Hubby decided he needed the car for work but also needed us to pick up his prescription. 

All this meant I had to use the new bike trailer. 

I bought it two weeks ago. Now I'm defiantly not returning to work I need to find a way of cutting our bills down. One being petrol. We are not too bad when it comes to fuel. We are not your average British family running two cars. We only have one but that one is a big engined Volvo V70 estate. 

We bought it because before S came along we were camping for our holidays. And really wanted something with a massive boot. The Volvo had the biggest boot. Unfortunately it also has a big gas guzzling engine. I can't believe how much petrol we go through each month. 

Hubby cycles the 14 mile round trip to work and back leaving me with the car to shuttle the kids around and grocery shop. I don't use the car for school runs as H's school is only 3 doors away but we do live in slight isolation as the nearest village is 2 miles away and we have no bus service. 

I bought the trailer so I can take S to toddlers and friends by bike and we can also little top up shops in the next village. 

We did our first trial of it today and I don't know if its because I was going at the slower pace of H or if its just that I've got so unfit since having S. But it was a lot harder work than I expected. 

Maybe it's a good thing. After all a little bit if exercise hurts no one. Just don't expect much housework out of me for the rest of the day lol.  

Sunday, 21 October 2012

Soo she's a daddy's girl

Well I went out last night. Was paranoid all night that if I phoned home hubby would have just got her off to sleep and I would wake her. So I resisted the urge to call.

Turns out she was brilliant for him. She drank almost all her bottle and went to sleep. She slept until 5:30am. I can't believe it.

Saturday, 20 October 2012

First time out alone

I'm both excited and nervous about tonight. It will be my first night out since Little Miss S was born without her.

I think the word anxious best describes me right now. I'm already feeling very sorry for hubby who is probably going to have a very tearful night.

What with no special fresh mummy milk to fall asleep with. There is also the added upset that one of her top teeth has decided to make this weekend it's time to make an appearance. Making me feel even more guilty.

Im sure I left Miss H much earlier than this. But then I had stopped breastfeeding her at 12 weeks and she had a dummy. S is now 8 months still breastfeeding and doesn't have a dummy. Although I feel very proud of this. It also makes me feel that she is very much more dependant on me.

So all this is leaving me split with mixed feelings about tonight. As much as I'm looking forward to letting my hair down. I can't nudge the feeling of anxiety.

Tuesday, 9 October 2012


This is now the second time S has had a lazy feed in the night and caused a blister on me leading to a blocked duct.

I'm in so much pain at the moment. All I can do is feed from my good side and express from my bad with lots of lanolin.

My nipple hurts from the blister and my breast hurts from the lump forming from the blocked duct. Last time it took about 4 days to right it's self. I'm on day 3 at the moment. I really hope it sorts its self out soon.

She got very upset earlier when she saw me expressing. I think she thinks the pump is stealing her milk lol.

Tuesday, 2 October 2012

Playing Out

There has been something very sad on the news today. A little girl in Wales has gone missing. http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-wales-19800140

As a parent my thoughts go to the family. I can't even begin to think about how they must be feeling right now.

I have many friends from around the country and the world on my Facebook page. And one thing this has started is a discussion on what age should you be letting your child out to play on there own and until what time of night?

The family is being judged somewhat unfairly by many who say she should never had been allowed out playing at that time. Others don't see what the issue is. It's a rural village where everyone felt safe. Why shouldn't she be allowed to play out with her friends.

We live in a fairly rural area. In a quiet little village. I do occasionally let my 7yr old out to play on her own (out of the garden). We live 3 doors down from her school I let her walk to school on her own. I let her go to the playgrounds at weekends. I worry the whole time she's out of my sight.

The truth is I don't have to let her do this but I choose to let her. Why? Well because I feel she needs to learn trust responsibility and a sense of freedom.

When I was 7 I lived in a village bigger than this one. I was allowed to play from the top of the close (where we lived but you couldn't see the road from our house). To the bottom of the close. Which my mum could defiantly not see from our house. It was great. I could ride my bike, roller skate call for friends. It gave me freedom and independence and on many occasions I played out there with my younger brother. We were taught stranger danger and we felt safe. I'm guessing my parents felt it was safe as well as they let us out there.

These days kids are suffering with health issues like obesity and rickets because they are cooped up indoors in cotton wool all day long because we are too scared of the dangers out there. If your lucky enough to live in an area where you feel you can let your child play out. Then why shouldn't you. Statistically they are at no more risk than we were when we were children. It's just we know the dangers now.

I must admit though I do have rules for my daughter when she's playing out. Every 15 minutes she has to come back and check in with me then she is allowed out another 15 minutes if she's late then she's not allowed back out. It's the same rules we use when camping. If we have to go find her. She's not allowed back out. She's also not allowed in anyone's tent or at home house and none of her friends are allowed in ours. This way everyone can see where they are and what they are upto.

At the end of the day who are we to criticise someone else's parenting technique. We all bring our kids up the best we can. I see where my friends are coming from with there comments but someone could also say they are not preparing their children for the big bad world. I'm sure the parents of this little girl are beating them selves up enough over this, without all the added judgement.

I really hope they find her safe and well.

Sunday, 30 September 2012

Great Days

You know when you have had one of those great days and it leaves you feeling all warm and fuzzy inside?

It hasn't been a shout from the rooftops type of day. But I still love days like today. It's just been me and the girls mainly as hubby has been sleeping (night shifts again). And we have had a lazy day playing. Little Miss S used one of those push along walking toys for the first time. I'm so proud of her. If she's not walking by Christmas I will be very surprised.

She's not going to stay my baby for long that's for sure.

Tuesday, 25 September 2012


I breastfed Miss H until 12 weeks where due to peer pressure from friends and family and her being on me constantly I gave up. I regretted it almost immediately but I was young and went what I classed as the easy route.

Other than the constant feeding H was a dream to feed. She latched on properly from the moment she was put on my chest after the birth. She never gave me cracked or sore nipples. She fed every 4 hours and slept in between. Just a shame I suffered from PND and didn't appreciate it as much as what I probably should have done.

Little Miss S is a whole different matter. You really don't realise how different 2 babies can be until you have your own. She didnt latch on properly to begin with. She has given me sore cracked nipples and blisters. She wont sleep in the day. She wants constant attention.

Im still breastfeeding her even though she has put me through all of this though. I have found myself the proper support from BFN and we have now sailed pass all my mini targets. I started wanting to reach the 12 weeks at least again, but this time it was so much harder. at 5 weeks I was convinced she had TT but if she did no one could find it and diagnose it so I battled on through. We have had good weeks and we have had bad weeks. Ive been told by friends and family to give up but I didnt listen to them this time. I new I was going to give her the best start I could.

Monday, 24 September 2012


Birth is a scary thing to a first time Mum.

I had a horrible Pregnancy with DD1 I suffered Pre Natal Depression through out I had bad morning sickness through out. It really was horrid.

DD1 broke my waters at 4:30am So being a young first time mum hubby took me straight to maternity where they confirmed that my waters had broken then said they will probably send me home for 72hrs. They popped the monitor on me to check DD1 and noticed that her heart rate kept dipping. They assured me this was fine but to be on the safe side they will induce me.

Lunchtime came and they popped the drip into my hand and oh my did the contractions speed up. The gas and air made me dizzy and sick (hubby said I looked like Churchill the nodding dog) so being scared of what was still to come I opted straight for the epidural. 18:28 My DD1 was delivered.

I have always thought it was a rather tranquil birth. I always thought I was lucky (you hear real horror stories) I felt nothing I had a midwife tell me when to push. I thought to myself to push but didnt know if I was as I could feel nothing. Hubby was by my side holding my hand then my beautiful baby was handed to me where she then latched on perfectly.

Since having my 2nd my thought on that have changed. DD2 broke my waters at 3:30am I wanted to labour it out as much as possible at home as I was hopping to try and have a water birth. I phoned the hospital to see if they had one available and to tell them my waters had broke. I was then annoyed to be told I had to come straight in to be checked. We got to the hospital at 6:30am and they popped the monitor on me. Until 8:30 they tried to get a good monitor but it wasn't happening. they couldn't tell if her heart rate was dipping again or if they just couldn't get a good connection. They decided they where going to keep me in and try again in a couple of hours. They told us to go for a walk and get some breakfast. I used this time to come to terms that I wasn't going to get to labour it out at home and we got ourselves some bits to keep us going to what appeared to be a long day ahead of us. We got back to our room and was told they had changed there mind can I come back tomorrow morning unless things progress further naturally in the mean time.

Home we trotted and my contractions continued sporadic every 10 minutes through out the night. Enough to keep me awake all night but not enough to go back in. 8am came (the time they asked us to call to see if they were ready for us) and I phoned the hospital where they confirmed they had a free bed and were ready to induce me. There went my water birth.

DD2 did not go to the hospitals plan. I knew induction would bring contractions on harder and faster and I was now completely knackered from no sleep so asked if I could have the epidural again. The doctor was on ward rounds so we would have to wait for her then the aneasatist was in on an emergency so there would be waiting for her. By the time the Dr came to put the bit in the back of my hand (Im needle phobic so the midwife didnt want to do it) I was 2 minutes apart with my contractions I was breathing through them and the only pain killer I had was a Diamorphine jab that was quickly wearing off. The midwife decided it was probably best to wait for the epidural before putting the induction in.

All the way through this I had a niggle in the back of my head I wasnt going to get this induction or epidural. Just after the Dr left I really needed a wee I had been drinking lots of water all morning the Midwife allowed me to take the monitor off to go to the loo. While in there I had another 2 strong contractions and thought if I dont make it back to the bed now Im going to have this baby down the loo.

I just made it to the edge of the bed before a 3rd strong contraction came. I said to the midwife I can feel her pushing down shes coming. the midwife said she needs to check I mustn't push but I had no control this baby was pushing down whether I liked it or not. Within 2 minutes my baby was here the midwife tried to call for assistance to try and help me get back fully onto the bed but before anyone got there I had had the baby.

I loved the birth of my DD2 It was just me hubby and 1 midwife (not the 8people in DD1 birth) DD2 was born at 12:51 lunch time. We were all in the car going home to see her big sister at 16:30 and I recovered so much faster. I was buzzing from the experience for weeks. My friends couldn't believe how fast I was home and had recovered.

If we ever have a 3rd I will defiantly be putting the epidural off and maybe be a bit more forceful about that water birth

Where Do I Start

Hi I'm a Mum of 2 beautiful girls one age 7years and another 7months.

Thought I would share my ups and downs of being a Mum. We all have them but sometimes you can feel a little alone while going through them.

Miss H DD1 is a true tribute to my husband and I. She is doing very well at school got above average in all her SAT's back in May and is now tackling junior school. Don't get me wrong she is no angel. I just wish she would stop with all her tantrums and learn to tidy her room.

Little Miss S DD2 is growing up way to fast. She's crawling and starting to stand up by herself using the sofa already. H didn't crawl until she was 8months. I can't believe how fast this year is going. Hubby and I waited 6 years for this (I have Poly Cystic Ovaries) and she is not going to stay my baby for long.